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I'm not sure why I sit on the trains at the subway everyday. Riding around and around until I'm dizzy. Perhaps the rattle and clatter is a comfort to the deafening silence of my house. Perhaps the swirling colours rushing past the window, a blur of joy and hope, quicken my pulse in comparison to the murky browns and rigid grays of my house. Maybe. At the third stop of the morning more people fill the fish tank like train and meander up and down each isle looking for a seat. A young man and presumably his son scuttle in; laughing and smiling. I catch myself staring intensely at them and glance out the window, the constant rainbow rushing b

In a little town called England, There lived a girl called Emily, She was cute, with brown curls, Rosy cheeks, and ready for the world, In another little town, One called Australia, Another girl lived, Her name was India. Neither one knew, Of the others existence, Till one moved, Her whole world shifted, Growing closer by day, They were never apart, Laughter and happiness, Flowed from their teeny, tiny hearts, Joy in all God’s creatures, Great and small, Love erupted, From each little pore, Creativity, That was the glue, That held them together, Continually liking what the other drew, Scary stories late at night,

Long, brown hair, Dark, chocolate eyes, Swaying like the ocean, Kissing like a breeze, Your sway and hold, Like a firm, grand tree, Whispering secrets, Into the wind, Holding me softly, Although I’ve sinned, Crushing love, Like a wave, Swallowed whole, With no pain, Growing anxious, Emptiness has arrived, I shove those feelings, Way, down, deep, Inside, This isn’t love, This isn’t hate, This is ambiguous, The kind we all create, Those feelings so unsure, Caressing my mind, So impure, Bittersweet, Like a candy treat, Poisonous with just one drop, There’s no way to stop, Always falling, Into th

There’s a lost soul I know, Wandering to and fro, Through the darkness, Through the light, Wondering which way to take, Just tonight, Smirking at the dark, Laughing at the cruel, Crying at the light, Shuddering with fright, Wondering which emotion to be, That’s the key, Where’s the door? The door for this poor lost soul? Wandering so aimlessly, Trapped, never free, Reaching towards the heavens, Crying out loud, WHY AM I ME?

Claws digging, Nails scratching, Teeth biting, Pain, Grip released, Hot breath, Dripping sweat, Exultation, All these feelings rushing by, One by one trying to comply, Heart racing, pumping fast, What is it about this thing called Lust?

I sang you a melody, You IGNORED me, I picked you a rose, You TURNED away, I gave you my heart, You THREW it on the ground, why… I ignored your melody, I don’t DESERVE to hear it, I didn’t take the rose, It reminds me of YOUR BEAUTY, I threw your heart, If I couldn’t have it, NO ONE CAN.

You challenge me, You make me angry, unshed tears, you make them fall, but, you are also my sunshine, my laughter, heart and my soul, Friendship like an infinite flame, burning till the end of time...